None of you have EVER had one of those days where you think your story is better, your idea is better, your child is better, your driving is better, your EVERYTHING is better than everyone else because, frankly, you don't have time for anyone else! Yes, that was me. Today. It is hard to imagine anyone could ever feel that way, but I would like to introduce you to HORMONES. They make you forget, think everyone else is crazy, and have enough patience for NOTHING. The reality is that I am the crazy one and I'm sure with a bad attitude like this one I've worn everyone else's patience quite thin.
Luckily, I clued in before the day was too far gone. I wanted to crawl in to a bed and stay there until I no longer wanted to tell everyone how they are doing EVERYTHING wrong! When the Bible talks about having good character, it is not referring to me, today. Although I was being genuine, I was not being loving, honorable, generous, humble, pure, encouraging, gracious, or faithful. I was being selfish and hateful for certain. This morning I should have know there was a hormone surge because I was mad about everything. The coffee cup was not where I wanted it. The cereal box was not open yet. My son wanted an egg. Do you see a problem? Yeah, me too.
Tonight I apologize for thinking bad thoughts or being growly. I may not have acted out on any of these things toward anyone(other than my family), but they were going on inside of me. The hateful me is a horrible person and for that I am sorry. I hope you never have the mean version of yourself make an appearance. I hope you never meet the mean ME having an "personal appearance"....it is memorable. Tonight I think I might rub on a little extra progesterone cream for the sake of my children. I think I can safely blame my hormone surge on my goats' pregnancies.
I hope tomorrow is a brighter day because, after all, I am in charge of my own morale. I am thankful for the choice to make my life better by changing my attitude, by the GRACE of GOD! (Day15). Goodnight Friends!
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